i type, then i delete. every day i have done this. i just don't have words right now to really honestly describe the sadness i feel. sadness, void in my heart and just numbness that is taking over my life.
i have found some overwhelmingly great friends i did not know i had, listening and just plain being there even though others have told me how "bad" they are for me. i have made some great friends through this blog that inspire and are just say "i am here" and that lifts me up (thank you Nola and Amber W). and then i have found the friends i thought were thick and thin that just judge and condem me,that can't understand and just don't want to see how bad it really is, and i just hit the ignore button on my phone
i can't deal with that now.
so i start a new job tommorrow. i will wake up and go to work and get through the day somehow,, like i do every other day. sorry i don't have much to say hopefully that will change soon.
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- FRIDAY FRAGMENT...IN A LIST
- Kelly Bensimon pulled a Chris Brown
- quiz
- FAVORITE THINGS SWAP
- didn't see this one coming
- repenting...and i stalk my own blog
- in all fairness
- Friend Making Mondays...is it that time already???
- it's really not that bad guys
- Day 2 of the rest of my life
- Cause i do have a sense of humor right now
- thoughts for today while going through this "poo" ...
- no i didn't!!!
- no words
- i'm still alive
- thank you Nola's friend
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