it's been awhile

I decided to take a break for awhile. Not sure when or if I will ever fully return to something that once was so fulfilling and theraputic for me...I just know that even I did not want to read my blog posts after awhile so why should you?

Coming to terms with my Bipolar Disorder has meant coming to terms with some very ugly truths about myself. Something that is not easy to do.

When you have spent so much of your time asking why and what it, and justifying and just plain staying hurt you don't have alot of healing going on.

So I that is what I am doing. or trying to. heal.
not numbing it from what's in a bottle, not pretending to forget in a bar, but just getting through today. feeling the burn and all.