Breast Cancer Awareness and how much I loathe it...

Dont get me wrong I know how important early detection is. My mom had it, battled a radical mastectomy and we never ever saw it slow her down. My mom is and always has been superwoman like that. As much as we are different she is so much stronger and wiser than me. She did all this and raised us, loved us, protected us from her illness (honestly we did not even know until it was over she did not want us to worry) she worked full time and was at every sporting event, school concert and parent teacher conference NEVER one time complaining or making excuses. Kind of makes me feel bad for missing someone who never even knew when my birthday was and she gave birth to me...just saying. my bad!

so I am not a stranger to the importance of giving the girls a feel. I know early detection can save your life.

I also know that I hate all the posts. I hate all the pink. I hate that my friend is not here to post all this on her own. And to illustrate how much I am in awe of her and my mom I have a pink tattoo on my wrist...let me repeat...ON MY WRIST. pink. which I have never worn EVER. i even dressed my girls in green or yellow or hell, even blue...NEVER pink. hate the color. but yet i have it tattooed on my body.

I am on the bottom. The pink is for the breast cancer, the orange is for the leukemia from the cancer that ultimately decided that heaven needed her more than we did....

I wish you were here Annie. I wish that I had been there and not so wrapped in my own petty crap and I wish that this lesson was not so final for me. let me stop, this is not about me. it's about you. and although I hate the posts, the reminders, all the things that tell me you are not here anymore I will do it...cause I know you can't...

I love you Annie Noodle girl..

Annie is the hottie in the hideous plaid shirt with the jean color that i hated...top right hand corner hand on my shoulder. My first Greenwood friend. LOVE that girl.....